Maybe it's hard at the beginning but as you keep doing it becomes easier. If you feel overwhelmed take a break for a few days and try again later. I think we all have been there and hit a wall. Self host, open source and Linux communities are friendly you can ask for help and find someone willing to help you, so don't be afraid to ask for help (as I was before). Just take small steps.
Like 1 hour every two months or so, I just run an ansible playbook and check everything is working ok