Thank you, comrade. I'm getting over it at my own pace. I've heard this advice that's like "you should consider making a family" and it's like "oh yeah, I'll just shower, dress up, and take the metro to the partner factory and pick up one of their new models". I even got a match with a person who had all their ducks in a row and froze like "I can't fucking do this". It's straight up a no go for me right now. I don't have the bandwidth to have someone close and intimate with me, to come home and need to listen and be there for them. To learn about them and hope they like me. Not to mention the craterous impacts that my exes left on my mental model for what a relationship looks like - "are you just saying that because it's convenient for you?" type shit.
Brazilian Jiu Jitsu should be compared to drawing more often. I think the time scale to competency and level of complexity is similar. White belts are essentially doodling faces and stick figures and getting frustrated that their proportions are off and they're not getting clean line work. Of course you're not. You don't know anything about the medium, this is your first time learning about form, light, and anatomy. I could use a crayon and make something more aesthetically pleasing than you because I know, generally, how to draw a proportionate looking face.
Don't ever get discouraged by your abilities below brown belt and instead maximize learning. When you know how to draw you'll make a lot less silly mistakes.
Communism winning. Healing the world of the protestant work ethic. These two are my ideal cases. Basically I want to automate and open source everything that corporations get paid a lot of money for.
For example I have this idea for an auto-manager that you could ping requesting a day off or a shift change and get a reply instantly regardless of time. That way a middle manager is akin to a "humans technician" just dealing with edge cases and getting much less prestige.
I also have one that's like runelite smart glasses. Where you can highlight everything that an employee needs to do in order in bright cyan ala quest helper for the open source Old School RuneScape launcher so you can essentially skip the part where you have to think and solve puzzles during your job.
And I hope that encourages more people to open source, automate, and make redundant the shittiest parts of business perchance put legacy institutional business models in peril.
If you're not going down the married with kids route, it shouldn't be in pursuit of social isolation and shallow self-destructive hedonism. It should be to pursue passions that truly matter to you, to get deeply connected with people in other ways, etc.
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They broke up with me and I'm spinning my wheels rn. I'm cooked.
Can we take a second to reflect on how horribly and virulently racist it is to blame Mamdani for 9/11 or even put the two together? That's really really mean. Like he had anything to do with it. Like leftists (let alone succ dems) had anything to do with it[1]. If anything means anything then Dick ChenChain Slick Dick dying and not feeling relief means you forgot 9/11. Muslim = 9/11 is as disgraceful and mean as it comes.
[1] If memory serves the people who perpetrated 9/11 were funded and trained by the CIA to brutalize leftists
Establishment Dems would need to be incrementally pursuing a democratic workplace, cessation of imperial exploitation, and the dissolution of the violent enforcement of heteronormativity to be an interesting narrative foil to leftists. Hell, pick 2 and suddenly you have a real fight because you might actually argue about great being the enemy of good. Pick 1 and the lib arguments for harm reduction are compelling. Short of that what the fuck are we doing here? The plan is to get more racist as a means to incrementally increase funding to Israel?
Recalling the most bizarre conversation I had when defund the police was a new policy position (not that anyone ever did that if memory serves). I suggested the good shit like community safety officers, services, and keeping only a couple armed guards for the most extreme of situations. You know, the works. Goddamn if I didn't repeat myself 3 or 4 times while this lib kept going "I just don't know what to do if no one is suggesting alternatives!"
My complex about not feeling listened to continues to pay dividends every day. Stalin didn't go far enough but I hope Xi does
EstraDoll? More like Estra LAWL