I'm with the other commentator - you sound young. Nothing wrong with that, but our brains don't fully form until 27.

When I turned 27, the pop of me pulling my head out of my ass was heard by rural farmers in India. I'm now 40, and I wish I knew now what I knew then, so badly.

This is a very long winded way to say, don't paint yourself into a corner with dislike of formal education. Figure out what it's about it that you don't like and work to find a way to address or at least cope with it. Online courses are fine to learn things but they aren't widely recognized by employers, should you wish to work.

One of the things I learned and pass on to my mentees is that it's often the experience we don't like that's the most valuable. That doesn't mean suffer unnecessarily, but if you are in a tough spot learn what you can from it. In my case, I hated working with contactors, but that work is what got me a much better job where I'm home all the time.

Think about the best version of yourself and what that looks like. What are the major goals you need to meet to get there? What are those goals broken down into? How do you know if you met your smaller goals? Your objective (best version) is met though sequential steps and measurable progress