If you're willing to hit up Ebay for "new in box" options, you can get some pretty good stuff under $180. For wireless:
Fairbuds XL: Made by the Fairphone folks, who have a very good reputation for repairability and longevity.
Sonos Ace: Stainless steel pivots, replaceable earpads, huge battery, no glitchy touch controls. Mine have treated me well so far. Absurd you can find them this cheap, considering the original MSRP.
Most of what I have to say is just signal boosting everyone else here.
Since you identify as cisgendered, it's a good idea to speak with a therapist about your self-image and feelings of worth, as those may either be caused by or be the cause of the wrongness you're experiencing. Ask the therapist about body dysmorphia, not gender dysphoria. They're similar, but not identical. And finally, a few things that we trans girls do to help ourselves through the bad days: