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If I don't reply I'm probably struggling with basic communication or my health. Don't take it personally.

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  • Gonna get some raised garden beds, looking for feedback on this plan

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  • Thanks for the tip. I was looking to do a layer of straw to try and stack a few functions: moisture retention, breaking down some high carbon material fairly quickly to develop a better top layer, and then if I actually get anything I can harvest out of it and/or if it colonizes deeper into the pile then great.

    I figure there will already be fungi deeper in the pile that prefer the horse manure, especially if I've got the right aeration and moisture levels, but if not then it won't hurt. Chances are that my best bet at getting more high carbon material will be cardboard so the oyster mushrooms will be happy on that anyway.

    As for wood chips though I'm not banking on getting any anytime soon and if they sit at the bottom of the raised bed acting as bulk that's fine and if they break down or the oyster mushroom mycelium takes over then great but it's not a critical part of the plan. I think I'd need to buy spores or spawn for wine caps because they're not that popular here and shipping costs are absurd (just checked and it looks like it would cost me well over $50 to get some spawn 😬) I'm opting for oysters because they are easy and it's not that hard to buy some fresh ones and I know I can get a good level of success out of a diy low tech cardboard spawn - all in all I should be able to get more spawn than I need by spending maybe $5 and I'll be able to eat most of the mushrooms that I pick over, so if I don't get any success then the venture will only cost me pennies; even if the straw doesn't get broken down because all my spawn attempts fail (hard to imagine), the straw is still going to make for a good amendment or mulch anyway.

    I suppose if I'm going that far I could price up some bulk straw and maybe run a few buckets of oysters for harvesting and to make use of the spent straw afterwards.

  • Gonna get some raised garden beds, looking for feedback on this plan

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  • Thanks for the advice. Unfortunately we don't have free soil testing here except for if you have agricultural land.

    I have clay soil where I am so that kinda fucks me with regard to mixing soil in for drainage lol. I could potentially tear down a bed and turn the composted manure into biochar but I'd need to do sort out a lot to get to that point - I'm not opposed to it by any measure but it would take a fair bit of work.

    We have a chip drop type service that would be ideal but they say you get what you're given and potentially you can get an absolutely absurd amount of wood chips so as much as it would be ideal, I'm really reluctant to end up with a mountain of wood chips in my yard because it would create more problems than its worth.

  • Gonna get some raised garden beds, looking for feedback on this plan

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  • I'll put the word out on those sites, thanks for the recommendation.

    We have a chip drop type service where I live but the site says you get what you're given and it can be up to 500+ cubic feet, which would bury my small area and my neighbors would kill me.

  • This is probably a bit, but this kind of thing is what I mean when I say people pathologize everything now.

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  • Also these might be Tumblr (?) trolls doing a joke in the screenshot.

    I choose to believe this in order to keep my ailing faith in humanity on life support but the fact that it's probably just an exaggeration is concerning.

  • Fatberg the size of four buses likely birthed poo balls that closed Sydney beaches – and it can’t be cleared

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  • the communism understander has entered the chat and i am happy to report experts still say vuvuzula human nature

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  • Sometimes I drop this on people who have such a bad case of Stockholm syndrome that they can't imagine outside of the bounds of capitalism. It's really hard to argue against a living historical precedent.

  • the communism understander has entered the chat and i am happy to report experts still say vuvuzula human nature

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  • "The only possible thing we can do is to reward the most excessive examples of a harmful human trait with the most resources, prestige, and political power in society. If there's a vice in human psychology, not only must we fuel it but we must center our entire political economy around various ways of amplifying it."

    I swear these people are just looking for any escape hatch to avoid addressing the gross immorality of capitalism or the possibility that things don't have to be this way. First time and only time I'm gonna praise SocDems but at least those guys believe that we should do something to address the problems in society caused by motivating forces like greed.

  • This is probably a bit, but this kind of thing is what I mean when I say people pathologize everything now.

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  • This is a half-baked thought but I'm kicking around the idea that this hyper-pathologizing urge is the opposite side of the normative coin whose obverse is grindset culture.

    The grindset is an extremely narrow and rigid concept of what's "acceptable" in society and I feel like the shadow that casts is that therefore everything else outside of it is inferior or bad. Throw in that weird online tendency to weaponize therapyspeak which has been on a massive upsurge in the past few years and it feels like the natural consequence of that coupled with the grindset normativity results in everything outside of the grindset being turned into a pathology.

    Idk I think I need to take this idea out for a spin a bit more before I decide whether it's actually accurate and maybe grindset isn't quite the right term here but I'm sure you get the kind of culture I'm trying to point at with the term. It's like some sort of cultural phrenology or something.

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    It is easier to imagine the end of the world than it is to imagine an alternative to the Yankee urban hellscape

  • List of cool books and videos about urbanism, transit and other cool things. Please help to expand it!

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  • Carfree Cities by JH Crawford is a very pragmatic look at how a carfree city can work in terms of practicalities. It's less ideological in the sense that it doesn't really hammer home "car bad" but instead it's like "hey, a better world is possible and here's a very grounded and realistic blueprint for it."

    In the first part it's very approachable and in the second part it's neck deep in urban planning stuff that might go over your head unless you're familiar with the discipline.

  • The PLAN is in for some trouble when this launches 6 years behind schedule 4x over budget, having a downgraded 10kw laser pointer, no railgun, and only enough ammunition for 2 volleys.

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  • More target practice for Ansarallah, eh?

  • Western Ancom "We gotta burn down mosques in the 95% muslim country to gain support"

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  • There's an anarchist who is really cool, one that I genuinely appreciate (and they're an egoist - generally I don't vibe with the egoists) who will straight up die on the hill that AI is an accessibility tool and that it's a very beneficial thing.

    Here's my position:

    Many disabled people need or heavily benefit from tech like PCs, whether it's for gaming or accessibility stuff or comfort shows or socializing or making art (will return to this in a moment.) AI is pricing everyone out of ram and GPUs, putting often very important tech out of the hands of disabled people.

    AI is used to parse job applications and it does sentiment analysis and detects anything anomalous in terms of writing style or tone and it filters it out or scores it lower than writing that fits the norm. This creates additional barriers to disabled people getting jobs and joining the workforce where they have communication differences.

    Education is strongly shifting back to exams because it's now one of the only ways to assess learning that doesn't permit the use of AI - almost every other form of academic assessment can be fudged by use of AI and often there's no way to prevent it. This sucks because exams test for performance under exam conditions and for a vast array of disabilities, exams are hell and disabled people perform poorly under them so AI is putting education out of reach on that count but also, as above, assessors are using AI to mark papers and provide feedback which sucks if your ability to express yourself within the expected norms is not easy/possible, not to mention if your ability to parse implication is impacted by your disability. Basically AI does vibe-marking and vibe-feedback so if you aren't a native at vibe-communication then you get punished by being marked down by AI and the feedback will be to improve the vibes and it will give you vague, vibe feedback which can be very hard to parse.

    Disabled people are routinely pushed out of employment and into the margins of society, often due to lack of accessibility. Since the dawn of capitalism, disabled people have disproportionately occupied roles that make money through commission work that can be done at the discretion of the disabled person - things like editing, sex work, and especially art and crafts have been generally more accommodating avenues for making a living for disabled people. AI is decimating these freelance industries, especially if Grok continues with its creepy shit, and this means that it's putting crucial and hard to come by income further out of reach for a demographic grossly overrepresented in poverty statistics due to discrimination (including structural discrimination), and this demographic usually has much higher living expenses so if their ability to generate income is negatively impacted by AI then it also puts access to education, healthcare, suitable accommodation, and social participation further out of reach for a demographic that typically struggles in these domains because they have higher needs or atypical needs in some/all of them.

    AI exploits psychiatric disability. (Yes, it's psychiatric disability and not just the sugar-coated "mental illness".) It fosters psychosis and delusions in vulnerable users, it encourages people to violent acts (not to mention criminal acts) and to clocking out early. AI can be extremely harmful to some people with disability.

    I'm very dubious that AI can be called an accessibility tool but, presuming that it is one for argument's sake, it's a Faustian bargain of an accessibility tool because while it may put some things closer within reach for some disabled people, the broader effect is to make things overall far worse and much more inaccessible for most disabled people.

  • Y'all ever have someone try to diagnose you with their therapist?

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  • I'd get really icy over someone doing this to me.

    At best it comes from a place of good intentions but there's a fair chance that it comes from a different place as well. As your chronic auDHD burnout buddy, I can assure you that I've had people pull similar shit on me because they either want their free resource to start working consistently again or they feel latent discomfort/helplessness about being confronted by my own circumstances and, instead of owning that and dealing with their own emotional reaction to it, they project it out onto me and demand that I start doing x and y so they don't have to experience that discomfort or helplessness anymore. Which is really selfish, although not uncommon, and I'm going to liken it to when someone misgenders a trans person and makes a big production out of apologizing which, ironically, creates a whole lot of additional emotional labor for the aggrieved party - if you misgender someone then the last thing you should be doing is centering your own discomfort and essentially forcing forgiveness out of the person you misgendered; don't go putting more on someone else's plate while you convince yourself that you're doing the right thing and that you're helping them. That's a very self-centered attitude.

    I think I'd tell them that I don't take kindly to the presumption that I'm not already doing everything that I can, that they know my circumstances better than I do, and that although I'm not opposed to them talking to their therapist about me if it's about navigating their own stuff like emotions, boundaries, and our friendship, I am very disappointed that they are conveying what they assume are my symptoms to their therapist on my behalf without my consent (which is tantamount to gossip) and that I'm even more disappointed that their therapist saw fit to diagnose me in absentia, that this was very poorly handled by their therapist, and it feels like a violation of their professional ethics.

    This would likely burn a bridge but, honestly, I don't have the time or the energy for that shit (see above re: chronic burnout) so if that's gonna burn that bridge then I take a "so be it" position. A therapist should know much better than to dive headlong into triangulation and to be so careless about it, even if that's not what is going on here (not that they have the ability to know the truth of it). It's extremely reckless of them.

    Caveat to say that, clearly, I'm bringing in a ton of my own emotional baggage into this discussion right now and that's coloring my response to it so take what I've said with a good pinch of salt and maybe run it by someone else who is trustworthy and has good emotional awareness before you go agreeing with what I've said here because I'm very much in my feelings on this topic.

  • Breakung up with my therapist in like 45 min and im nervous

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  • Much love to you too, comrade!

  • Breakung up with my therapist in like 45 min and im nervous

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  • Sounds like you did a fantastic job. It sucks that it went through that shit but you controlled the part that you could control, and you did exceptionally well. That's all that matters.

    I don't want to diminish how much it must suck for you right now but you faced a nightmare scenario head-on and came out the other side intact. Yep, it was a big waste of time and money and, yep, a therapist should never act that way but you handled that shit and if there's a silver lining it might be that if you feel anxious about opening up to a therapist in the future you can look at it from this perspective - what's the worst that could happen? Because you've already been through it. It definitely sucks but you know now that it's not gonna break you and, with a little luck and some distance from this shitty day, the fear of opening up to a therapist is gonna have much less of a hold on you.

  • Breakung up with my therapist in like 45 min and im nervous

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  • Hey, you did it and you got through it. That's what matters. Fuck that guy, acting like it's a bad thing to want to keep your partner happy and to have a secure place to live (??)

    A half-decent therapist understands that people have all sorts of motivations for attending therapy and they'll work with it regardless, it unless it risks direct harm to themselves or others (e.g. an abusive spouse wanting to get the therapist in on the gaslighting.)

    Thanks for the update. Take your time to decompress. Sounds like today you discovered that your misgivings about this therapist were well-placed and that your judgement is more trustworthy and your ability to keep yourself safe is more reliable than you might have thought. Here's to surviving a tough day!

  • Breakung up with my therapist in like 45 min and im nervous

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  • You got this. Therapy is about what you need to live well, it's not about your therapist. If they try and center your their needs (whoops, my bad) then that's a big red flag and it's your sign to run.

    You absolutely do not need to attend the full session. If they start trying some shit with you then you can—and should—call the session to a conclusion early. Boundaries are what we put in place to protect ourselves and you are allowed to protect yourself. You need a therapist that's in your corner but more than that, you need yourself in your own corner. If the therapist interferes with you being in your own corner then it's time to say "Okay, I think were done here. Thanks for your time. How much is today's session going to be?"

    (For reference I had a bad psychiatrist that didn't listen to me when I kept going back saying that I couldn't continue with the side effects of a medication and all they did was up the dose, tell me that the side effects mean that it's working [yeah - it's working in the wrong way and that's what I was trying to tell you the whole time, dipshit], and after months of this I ended up in a psych ward. We had an appointment that I think they scheduled for me in the ward before they released me and so I went in for it and we had a very awkward session then I made an appointment for the next month in full knowledge that I wasn't going to attend as a final "fuck you" because if you didn't listen to me sounding the alarm month after month because you didn't take me seriously then why would you take me seriously when I make an agreement to attend an appointment with you? Though I try to be less spiteful these days lol and a big part of that for me is by establishing healthy boundaries.)

  • genuinely why the fuck has my favourite writing tool, the em dash, been forever tainted by ai

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  • At the earliest age kids learn by failing over and over again and then, at some point, we decide that past a certain age it's no longer socially acceptable to learn by making attempts and, instead of people being polite and encouraging learning, people shame attempts and any mistakes. It's ridiculous imo.

    When it comes to learning language there's definitely a developmental stage in our brains that makes it easier to pick up a new language but I swear half of the reason why it's hard to learn a new language as an adult is because of the deep-seated fear of humiliation that society instills in us over what is just a natural part of learning.

    Fuck that shit, what a ridiculous arrangement and all we get out of it is stunted learning opportunities and higher rates of dementia.

  • RCS feed for streaming theory audiobooks?

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  • You're welcome. Tell your friends!

    There's also a spin-off audiobook channel that has socialist-leaning stuff which isn't strictly theory, so books more oriented towards matters of history and sociology that don't fit within theory itself but which contribute to it (e.g. a comparative biography of MLK and Malcolm X or a book looking at that time that Henry Ford attempted to create a utopian company town in the middle of the Amazon jungle). That channel is here but be aware there's also some fiction mixed in there like Amitav Ghosh's Ibis Trilogy which is likely of interest if you're keen on imperialism and colonialism and the drug trade but it's not a work of nonfiction.

    The historical books there can help flesh out your understanding of the world and to connect theory to real-world events and the fiction is intended to be a sort of palate cleanser that doesn't stray far away from stuff like history and materialism.

  • genuinely why the fuck has my favourite writing tool, the em dash, been forever tainted by ai

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  • It was. A semicolon is used where each sentence/clause can stand independently yet they are also related to one another; if you can start an entirely new sentence that makes sense by itself yet it could technically also be joined to the prior one using a comma then a semicolon fits.

    Like the em-dash it's a really handy punctuation tool for people who tend to use lots of subclauses and run on sentences (not naming any names here lol) because if you're putting a list with commas in it then dropping a strategic and appropriately used semicolon improves readability because it signals "we're not listing things now and this isn't another subclause, we're moving on to a different phase of writing but also it's not a completely different thought - these two parts are interrelated."

  • RCS feed for streaming theory audiobooks?

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  • There's yellow parenti podcast and red menace. I haven't kept up but a lot of the theory podcasts were kinda meh imo, hopefully they've improved though.

    If you're looking for actual theory audiobooks though, there's a lot over on TankieTube, in particular this channel but adding those audiobooks to a podcast player is gonna depend on how feature-rich your app is and it's not going to work as a feed unfortunately.

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    Should we do a 2026 predictions bingo?

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    A promising new YouTube channel focusing on Linux Mint 101 topics in bite-sized videos

    youtube.com /@lovelinuxxmint
  • music @hexbear.net
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    Kokym - Zaffit El Tahrer | كوكيم - زفة التحرير (هي ما بدها خاتم)

  • Games @hexbear.net
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    GOG just dropped Warhammer: Dark Omen, an old retro game with a cult following. Here's some rare mod files for it that don't exist elsewhere on the internet.

    www.gog.com /en/game/warhammer_dark_omen
  • diy @hexbear.net
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    DIY hydroponic tower for growing vegetables (except cheap, easy, and off-grid)

    hexbear.net /post/7134881
  • Self Improvement @hexbear.net
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    It's time to start learning how to grow your own vegetables, if you want to (hydroponic tower growing except cheap, easy, and off-grid)

    hexbear.net /post/7134881
  • gardening @hexbear.net
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    It's time to start learning how to grow your own vegetables (hydroponic tower growing except cheap, easy, and off-grid)

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    Graham Platner on Reddit 6 years ago commenting on a thread mentioning the totenkopf on a post discussing SS soldiers with a visible totenkopf in the photo

    undelete.pullpush.io /r/CombatFootage/comments/auy0bi/_/ehbh3n6/
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    Webfishing drop-in peer support - you're invited!

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    CLOSED

    Webfishing Drop-In Peer Support - you're invited!

  • Book Requests @hexbear.net
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    PDF to epub OCR request thread

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    How to access books uploaded to LibGen & How to upload to LibGen

  • Book Requests @hexbear.net
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    How to upload audiobooks to TankieTube, using the TankieTanuki-sanctioned method

  • Book Requests @hexbear.net
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    epub

    (Example Post) The Name of the Rose by Umberto Eco

  • Book Requests @hexbear.net
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    "How do I request a book?" • Read this before posting a request

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    /c/Book_Requests

  • fediverse @hexbear.net
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    TankieTube accessible on Android via GrayJay app

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    Vent post

    Being nonverbal is a permanent condition, selective mutism is not