ReadFanon [any, any]

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2h ago

Breakung up with my therapist in like 45 min and im nervous
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ReadFanon [any, any] @hexbear.net 2h ago
Hey, you did it and you got through it. That's what matters. Fuck that guy, acting like it's a bad thing to want to keep your partner happy and to have a secure place to live (??)
A half-decent therapist understands that people have all sorts of motivations for attending therapy and they'll work with it regardless, it unless it risks direct harm to themselves or others (e.g. an abusive spouse wanting to get the therapist in on the gaslighting.)
Thanks for the update. Take your time to decompress. Sounds like today you discovered that your misgivings about this therapist were well-placed and that your judgement is more trustworthy and your ability to keep yourself safe is more reliable than you might have thought. Here's to surviving a tough day!

4h ago

Breakung up with my therapist in like 45 min and im nervous

ReadFanon [any, any] @hexbear.net 4h ago

You got this. Therapy is about what you need to live well, it's not about your therapist. If they try and center ~~your~~ their needs (whoops, my bad) then that's a big red flag and it's your sign to run.

You absolutely do not need to attend the full session. If they start trying some shit with you then you can—and should—call the session to a conclusion early. Boundaries are what we put in place to protect ourselves and you are allowed to protect yourself. You need a therapist that's in your corner but more than that, you need yourself in your own corner. If the therapist interferes with you being in your own corner then it's time to say "Okay, I think were done here. Thanks for your time. How much is today's session going to be?"

(For reference I had a bad psychiatrist that didn't listen to me when I kept going back saying that I couldn't continue with the side effects of a medication and all they did was up the dose, tell me that the side effects mean that it's working [yeah - it's working in the wrong way and that's what I was trying to tell you the whole time, dipshit], and after months of this I ended up in a psych ward. We had an appointment that I think they scheduled for me in the ward before they released me and so I went in for it and we had a very awkward session then I made an appointment for the next month in full knowledge that I wasn't going to attend as a final "fuck you" because if you didn't listen to me sounding the alarm month after month because you didn't take me seriously then why would you take me seriously when I make an agreement to attend an appointment with you? Though I try to be less spiteful these days lol and a big part of that for me is by establishing healthy boundaries.)

4h ago

genuinely why the fuck has my favourite writing tool, the em dash, been forever tainted by ai

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ReadFanon [any, any] @hexbear.net 4h ago

At the earliest age kids learn by failing over and over again and then, at some point, we decide that past a certain age it's no longer socially acceptable to learn by making attempts and, instead of people being polite and encouraging learning, people shame attempts and any mistakes. It's ridiculous imo.

When it comes to learning language there's definitely a developmental stage in our brains that makes it easier to pick up a new language but I swear half of the reason why it's hard to learn a new language as an adult is because of the deep-seated fear of humiliation that society instills in us over what is just a natural part of learning.

Fuck that shit, what a ridiculous arrangement and all we get out of it is stunted learning opportunities and higher rates of dementia.

6h ago

RCS feed for streaming theory audiobooks?

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ReadFanon [any, any] @hexbear.net 6h ago

You're welcome. Tell your friends!

There's also a spin-off audiobook channel that has socialist-leaning stuff which isn't strictly theory, so books more oriented towards matters of history and sociology that don't fit within theory itself but which contribute to it (e.g. a comparative biography of MLK and Malcolm X or a book looking at that time that Henry Ford attempted to create a utopian company town in the middle of the Amazon jungle). That channel is here but be aware there's also some fiction mixed in there like Amitav Ghosh's Ibis Trilogy which is likely of interest if you're keen on imperialism and colonialism and the drug trade but it's not a work of nonfiction.

The historical books there can help flesh out your understanding of the world and to connect theory to real-world events and the fiction is intended to be a sort of palate cleanser that doesn't stray far away from stuff like history and materialism.

6h ago

genuinely why the fuck has my favourite writing tool, the em dash, been forever tainted by ai

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ReadFanon [any, any] @hexbear.net 6h ago

It was. A semicolon is used where each sentence/clause can stand independently yet they are also related to one another; if you can start an entirely new sentence that makes sense by itself yet it could technically also be joined to the prior one using a comma then a semicolon fits.

Like the em-dash it's a really handy punctuation tool for people who tend to use lots of subclauses and run on sentences (not naming any names here lol) because if you're putting a list with commas in it then dropping a strategic and appropriately used semicolon improves readability because it signals "we're not listing things now and this isn't another subclause, we're moving on to a different phase of writing but also it's not a completely different thought - these two parts are interrelated."

6h ago

RCS feed for streaming theory audiobooks?

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ReadFanon [any, any] @hexbear.net 6h ago

There's yellow parenti podcast and red menace. I haven't kept up but a lot of the theory podcasts were kinda meh imo, hopefully they've improved though.

If you're looking for actual theory audiobooks though, there's a lot over on TankieTube, in particular this channel but adding those audiobooks to a podcast player is gonna depend on how feature-rich your app is and it's not going to work as a feed unfortunately.

9h ago

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ReadFanon [any, any] @hexbear.net 9h ago

https://files.catbox.moe/jy020k.mp4

19h ago

America are the dark eldar

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ReadFanon [any, any] @hexbear.net 19h ago

Audiobook (1gb m4b)

Same caveat as the other link - I'm not familiar with this site etc. etc. but I can upload it somewhere else if you know of a better site.

Now where do I go to collect my points?

20h ago

America are the dark eldar

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ReadFanon [any, any] @hexbear.net 20h ago

Epub (Sorry it's not Carbox - it seems to be down for me right now. Use an adblocker and use your discretion.)

3d ago

Fascists are raising money for the murderer of Renee Nicole Good

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ReadFanon [any, any] @hexbear.net 3d ago

Nope, but if I was so inclined it's a great place to start to do some OSINT work. Just sayin'.

3d ago

I moved from the US to the world's most livable city. After nearly 2 years of disappointment, I couldn't wait to leave OR: How I moved abroad to a place I only knew from fairytale stereotypes

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ReadFanon [any, any] @hexbear.net 3d ago

Likewise for Ch*msky:

You can get a good measure of the sentiment of the masses towards the government based on how they feel when it comes to paying their taxes.

There are other, better people who have talked about why they support things like free education and welfare programs for early childhood development when they themselves do not have any children. Turns out that a well educated, well supported society makes the whole country safer, happier, more productive, and all round better for everyone in it regardless of whether or not they are receiving those benefits directly themselves.

I swear some of these people have a mentality so backwards that it's not even on the level of the Europeans living in the era of cholera who demanded better sanitation infrastructure. Though I guess that's obvious since American infrastructure is crumbling, septic tanks are a common feature over there, and they made a fucking folk hero out of a guy who went on a rampage because he was told multiple times over years that he couldn't dispose of his shit into the local groundwater supply because it was not Europe in the middle ages where you can just dump your shit in the streets.

3d ago

Fascists are raising money for the murderer of Renee Nicole Good

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ReadFanon [any, any] @hexbear.net 3d ago

Oh wow, look at all those donor names 👀

3d ago

"Tankie Bingo"

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ReadFanon [any, any] @hexbear.net 3d ago

I'd love for them to explain how Taiwan is a country and how Taiwan understands the situation.

This is a matter of hard facts. It should be a cinch to prove that it's a country, right?

3d ago

🇮🇷 "Women are wicked, evil, all of them" - “Women haven’t produced anything, no scientists, they’re pretty creatures” — Shah of Iran (the guy US/Israel want to put back in power)

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ReadFanon [any, any] @hexbear.net 3d ago

Bold of a monarch, of all people, to say such things. The last time a monarch produced anything was by producing conditions for revolution and a reason to research how to construct a guillotine.

3d ago

I moved from the US to the world's most livable city. After nearly 2 years of disappointment, I couldn't wait to leave OR: How I moved abroad to a place I only knew from fairytale stereotypes

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ReadFanon [any, any] @hexbear.net 3d ago

Maternity leave, which directly benefits all of society by giving infants a good start at the most critical period of life and thus creates the foundations for a healthy society, isn't something that I personally can make use of so and that's a thing I take major issue with.

You can take an American out of a culture steeped in hyper-individualism but apparently you can't take the hyper-individualism out of an American.

3d ago

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ReadFanon [any, any] @hexbear.net 3d ago

The average person here wouldn't even recognize the name

3d ago

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ReadFanon [any, any] @hexbear.net 3d ago

Didn't have my ear to the ground on that one but I can only imagine that the average person where I live would only know what the mainstream media fed them - Assad is a dictator, the moderate rebels are freedom fighters, maybe something about Captagon or barrel bombs or the OPCW report. So I imagine they would have been supported by the average Joe here.

3d ago

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ReadFanon [any, any] @hexbear.net 3d ago

Yeah, same here. I'm a pretty staunch atheist and I live in a country that is quite atheist but this tendency still manifests in this reflexive support for the underdog, no matter who it is. (Reflexive as in "by reflex" here.)

If ISIS didn't have a bad name, plenty of people here would support them just because they're plucky upstarts fighting against the ruling powers of West Asia. Case in point is the exact thing happened with the Azov battalion. Yikes.

3d ago

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ReadFanon [any, any] @hexbear.net 3d ago

If I read that article when I first became radicalized I would have saved me years of wasted effort. I cannot emphasize how valuable that essay is.

3d ago

Sunday is Gaming Day: What Are You Playing Weekly Thread

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ReadFanon [any, any] @hexbear.net 3d ago

I started playing the Shroom & Gloom demo again after forgetting about it for a long time.

It's been in development for quite a chunk of time now and, as long as the game has a decent amount of length to it and they don't phone in the latter parts of the game, it's going to be a contender for my GOTY when it drops.

It's a roguelike deckbuilder (sigh...) but there's a lot of love that has gone into the game - roguelikes and/deckbuilders are less like genres and more like signifiers of lazy gameplay mechanics these days but S&G feels very different to me, despite the structure of the gameplay being very familiar. There are a lot of nice touches to the game and the art style is fantastic. It's immersive in the way that Cloverpit is in comparison to Luck Be A Landlord, and there is a very different but somehow reminiscent feeling of horror to S&G, although S&G is more cosmic horror with elements of body horror.

I'm gonna need to put the demo down soon so I don't burn myself out on the game before it has even been released.