This is my unified reply to all of you guys giving enlightening advices.
This post, or my decision on starting a 4 hour sleep routine is still just a strong decision. I haven't acted upon it yet.. Hence this post to get what the elderly and experienced people have to say who did maintain this kinda routine when they were in my age.
It isn't that I don't understand the underlying biological damage that would have caused on me if I really were to stick on this routine for long.
I was angrily gritting my teeth( imaginatively ) against the people( my parents ) who ( kind of ) made me to push myself to this negative extreme. That's why I suppose, was taken back by my ego or something like that and decided to make this self-damaging routine to follow.
I had other plans in this routine that'd suffice in the psychological way( meaning, to avoid burnout, crashing out, snappy temper etc ).
But, after reading your comments, who are experienced and lived through this kinda phase, I realized that for my mental health, maintaining other sorts of psychological assistance while avoiding enough sleep is like, feeding my stomach with side dish like salad dressing instead of eating actual salad.
From where I am, now it's night time. Tomorrow is a big day for me. And after reading all of your comments, I've decided to fully drown myself in sleep without setting an alarm. I'll let myself be.
Probably I'll wake up with a clear head, and with a reason not to keep myself deprived of sleep that much.
I'm kinda in a situation of "The world can go fuck itself but I need to grind." Not physically, but mentally.
I had a dispute with my parents 2 days ago. They're the typical parents who doesn't even know the existence of mental health and don't know that it is an actual concern, plus they bring down trauma of their parents by picking on their children( me ).
They have been doing this for years and only yesterday, I decided that I won't tolerate their behavior.
That's when I edited my current routine and changed it into the one I wrote in the post.
I decided that I need to get a stable grade first, no matter what. Then I need to increase my financial income.
Only then, I'm hoping that they MIGHT stop picking on me and then I can focus on myself, for myself.
Anyway, increasing the sleeping hours isn't impossible. It's just that, after getting put under their demeaning spotlight, I don't find it worthy to have a good sleep for myself anymore and probably there's not much of a convincing method that'll shift my mindset to think otherwise. Probably....
Perhaps I'll change my decision after 1 week....
I'm still at a "whim of the moment" position. I'm determined enough to stick to a 4 hour sleep routine, but not sure enough if that is an ideal decision for me. Also I don't have enough willpower to atomically divide down and re-edit my schedule to increase it in a 7-8 hours sleep schedule. At least, not for now.
Imagining a cat on my hand is just for adding easiness.
I can imagine a cat anywhere. Right now, a tall water bottle is on a table in front of me. I can imagine a cat one the table, walking towards the bottle and ultimately jumps on it. I can also imagine the bottle to shake or fall down as an impact.
Imagining a still object, for example an apple is more easy. I can imagine the apple has a non scientifical gravity trait and it keeps bouncing on every flat surfaces around the room.
I've been considering this as normal imagination power for the people who don't have Aphantasia. Probably because I can imagine like this with ease.
Seeing past the thing that I imagine is kinda a cognitive blindspot. Because, I don't try to look past what I imagine. A cat or an apple.
Only when I get aware of the fact if I really do look past or not, the confusion arises. But it is much difficult for me to imagine a transparent object. Like an apple made of glass.
Wow. I didn't know about the term "prophantasia" until now.
Probably because I think that visualizing things in our 3d world is a normally developed imagination power of the people who don't have Aphantasia.
Prophantasia seems like biologically evolved Augmented Reality. Where instead of wearing a piece of AR glass, We're naturally born with this trait.
I can pull out my palm in front of me and visualize a small cat jumping around. Not for too long because I cannot imagine the random movement a cat does. But, as a still object, visualizing an apple is easy.
I am more curious to wonder if someone can manually develop Spatial Intelligence without being born with it priorly.
This is my unified reply to all of you guys giving enlightening advices.
This post, or my decision on starting a 4 hour sleep routine is still just a strong decision. I haven't acted upon it yet.. Hence this post to get what the elderly and experienced people have to say who did maintain this kinda routine when they were in my age.
It isn't that I don't understand the underlying biological damage that would have caused on me if I really were to stick on this routine for long.
I was angrily gritting my teeth( imaginatively ) against the people( my parents ) who ( kind of ) made me to push myself to this negative extreme. That's why I suppose, was taken back by my ego or something like that and decided to make this self-damaging routine to follow.
I had other plans in this routine that'd suffice in the psychological way( meaning, to avoid burnout, crashing out, snappy temper etc ).
But, after reading your comments, who are experienced and lived through this kinda phase, I realized that for my mental health, maintaining other sorts of psychological assistance while avoiding enough sleep is like, feeding my stomach with side dish like salad dressing instead of eating actual salad.
From where I am, now it's night time. Tomorrow is a big day for me. And after reading all of your comments, I've decided to fully drown myself in sleep without setting an alarm. I'll let myself be.
Probably I'll wake up with a clear head, and with a reason not to keep myself deprived of sleep that much.
I'll give an update. Thank you everyone.