You deserve to have a loving boyfriend as long as you treat him well. The important thing is that you are there for him emotionally.
Just because you have a chronic illness and are weird doesn't mean that you cannot love someone else and not treat him well. Every person has their own limitations on what they can do and it isn't better or worse if yours are different.
It could be a good idea to look for a boyfriend with similar struggles because that means that he will understand your struggles very easily and you wouldn't feel like you hold him back because he wouldn't want to do something that you can't do anyway.
There are some exceptions to this, it may not always be a good idea for two depressed people to be together if they pull each other deeper into depression for example.
I am not a normal person either and I have looked for love for a long time and didn't find it until I met my girlfriend. We both have similar struggles so we can understand each other very well and we are both so happy that we have found each other.
I have my Google Account set to English, but YouTube still autotranslates all video titles of newer videos to German for some reason...