I wish life wasnt so pay to play. I just want to enjoy some of it.

I have been there and lemme just say it gets a lot better when everyone gets to know you as your real self. It helps affirm that youre real and as people see you as a girl in passing that helps a lot too. Medical care is slow af as well as the effects so you may as well get used to waiting! I just hope for any trans person to make it to a comfortable place. It took me a long time but with support i feel better and more honest with myself than ever and its really about you being yourself first and then letting those deemed worthy in (as opposed to coming out- you ultimately have agency of your life and identity).