Kirsche

Puddle has been wet for a while, infact, it’s practically almost an inland ocean, why do you think we’re funding drone wars? Ai computing? Quantum computers? tactical robotics? Surveilence companies like Pegasus, Blackrock, Palantir, Even our our domestic surveilence is getting a larger check than defense. It’s a very deliberate “funding” of institutions that ultimately give the police an upperhand, not saying that the police are directly funding these institutions, but rather the state, although not much when it comes to anything outside the defense budget.

There’s a reason why privacy advocates are for alternative tech, and that’s because since 9/11, corporations have become “lobbied” for lack of a better word, to include backdoors and implement certain tech to aid a surveilence state, such as the removal of headphone jacks, the endorsement of useless and extremely vulnerable tech that’s more energy wasting, blutooth products (yeah i have a problem with it, everyone should), fingerprint sensors, front and back facing cameras, artificial intelligence (yes even the older models.), and even going as far as to add metadata to photos that give your exact geolocation data.

Don’t even get me started on the invasive software that comes with the tech, like auto generated albums, or auto editing photos, the such, it pisses me off that we let these things happen. Alternative tech makes it much harder to intercept such vulnerable information, ofcourse, it won’t completely stop it, but it mitigates how much they can swipe under your nose.

Not only that, but check upon the “Blue Shield Act,” it explains the motive for corruption within the american institutions of police, hear no evil, see no evil, speak no evil. It’s the common trope for the kinds of psychopaths that would be okay with doing the job in the first place. If there’s one thing that makes their job easier, it’s definitely going to be you in cuffs staying silent, so why try to steer away from cutting corners? We’re the law, what we say is final. Until it isn’t ofcourse…

But that’s the problem, as you state in your comment above, this abuse of power is shrugged off, almost as if a normal behaviour, expected. It’s digusting to see it even when i grew up around the same mentality. But hey, at least their method clearly seems to be working, we’re practically silent seeing as they still have the confidence to fuck with our lives.

Just remember, it’s final until it isn’t.

Anarchists try not to be based, gone wrong in the soup kitchen. (99% FAIL!!!)

I think… I’m hungry for seconds, and maybe another drink. NO ICE!

It. GROWS. UPWARDS. IT GROWS UP!!! UP!

I don’t see how the supreme court could do this!

Clearly brown cows produce chocolate milk, so why don’t plants that GROW UPWARDS!!! Count as trees?!?!?!?

The american logic clearly follows a mysterious trend of some sorts…

If i could, i’d burn a whole forest just to write a manifesto about climate change.

I don’t understand how we’ve become so dumb that we simply can’t turn a knob for gas and strike a match for a flame. Or, well atleast dumb enough to accept these kinds of shitty products on the “free market.” I understand having convenience in your life, but at the cost of this? AND a higher price all for some “super smoke” and “timer” option.

Is this the technofeudalist dream? If the next big thing in smart tech is to add ai to grills to “get the perfect sear” or whatever, just kill me.

Also having the fat ass titties genetics helps too, idk who you have to fuck to get em 🤷‍♀️

With makeup running down your face, watching the cars and trains go by, only the glow of the lights are what you can make out of them, it’s a dark night, and so is your whole house because, well, you turned your lights off out of embarassment, you wouldn’t want to see yourself like this.

You wanted to play music, but you don’t want anyone to know what you’re going through, you slip each earpiece in as the music fades in, it only amplifies what you feel, so you take another swig. One blink and you’re on a chair leaning against the window sill, face in hand that you can barely feel, and as you keep slipping higher, the lights bleed in your vision like a reflection in the puddle. The psychedelic nature of the way it refracts and distorts in your vision, as the perspective of each moving light changes the way it was mathematically programmed to dance for you, it calms you, it… changes everything.

“Do i do this to supress the emotions?” i scoff towards the end, i know the answer.

“No, all i can do is wallow in it, this is how i conditioned myself to deal with these feelings…” i check the bottle, and there’s barely a drop left.

Why sink deeper? i think. But i have no answer, all i can really say is that it has to stop. All it takes is one thought, one deeply satisfying harmful thought to send me away from the opportunity of life. No, i can’t do that, i can’t let anyone i know do that.

“Hey, you know you can talk to me right?” I already knew this was an option.

“Yeah…” and here i am not following my own advice, not following the advice of others. And for what? They want to help me, am i just, embarrassed? Is it the fear seeming vulnerable? It’s all in good will, a mutual exchange, so what’s wrong with me? Does it challenge the trust i have for others?

Maybe i just like feeling this way, on the brink, it’s almost fufilling to pull myself out of it all. It’s an adventure of the mind, how far can i go before i slip hard? But this game has no “win,” there is no “prize,” other than getting your shit together again.

But the adrenaline is worth it, i mean, where else can you get such an intense feeling from? Life is so boring, i want to feel something, stimulation they call it. I’m doomed to a life of it. To chase it is to find the motivation towards living, is that not what life is after all? A desire.

Otherwise, it might as well just be one deeply wrong movie, one that you are forced to watch, forced to live in. What’s the fun in any of that? I’d rather feel in control, even if that means i have to live with trauma and pride of my fuckups and passions…

I am human after all, and we have the ability to change so many things, why refuse to change the mind? After all, life never started from stagnation. Be vibrant.

I’m making a sandwich rn. wyd?

Splash it in the face of the people who piss you off, pour it down their pants when they aren’t looking, set the pan on their chest when they’re asleep and set their hand in the grease. I DON’T CARE.

Absolutely, experimentation is better than following the steps of someone else anyways, not everyone will have the same experience.

I definitely understand that, it takes time to get used to “wanting” to wake up.

I feel like if that happened to me though it would motivate me to find something different… not throwing shade, but it’s what i would do. Though sleeping in isn’t that much of a bad thing when you have time to sleep in, no need to be punctual about it as long as you don’t let it go. Balance.

Anyways, sucks for boss cause if i’m late then there’s no reason to rush myself any further. I’m still going to work, still doing my job the same, they simply just don’t understand that.

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if you wake up at 4:00 then you have like 3ish hours of free time to wake up and do stuff before work or whatever. Tons better than waking up and forcing yourself awake with coffee to then take a 5 minute microwave heat shower to then rush yourself and your soaked slippy ass to the car where your hair looks weird and you look and feel like a wet skunk in a swamp summer.

Pass, i will take a cold shower in the dead of night, to then go out for a smoke while it’s still dark, and come back inside to enjoy rice bowl in the atmospheric glow of my dim lighting (a must for waking up while it’s still dark), the rest of the time is just spent waking up, catching the news, maybe a show or two. I love it.

please consider the method, it will exponentially increase your mental health, rushed mornings tend to make you feel “forced” and it causes stress over time, not helpful if you have to work a lot, and doing it will actually make you want to sleep instead of forcing yourself to do that aswell.

Don’t force yourself, find balance in your life.