I hear you, I have this disorder myself. I was surprised as well when I was diagnosed. Soon enough you'll start seeing it in your behaviour and don't worry. Your not "cooked". Those with ASPD can live normal lives you just need insight and help. You may not feel empathy or shame, you may not be able to relate to others and you not be able to tell the difference between wrong and right but none of those things will hold you down. You just feel emotion and perceived things in a different way. That's all.

As for the "alcoholic" thing. It's common for those of us with this disorder to become dependent on drugs and booze. It's a way to satisfy your need for stimulants and to combat chronic boredom. I take both myself but I'm not addicted.