I see now that a big reason for my behavior was that I actually wanted to be a girl. I've always been jealous that girls were usually the ones being picked up. I wanted to be complimented, I wanted to be cute and I imagined myself as girls I liked… However, I thought at the time that transfems always ended up as ugly beings who look neither feminine nor masculine. Well, now I know that not only beauty is highly subjective, but also there are also non-binary people. And that many trans people are virtually undistinguishable from cis people, but they receive the last media attention… guess why.
So yeah, I would try to tell myself in the most gentle way possible to research the topic
I plan to self-host a music server with music ripped from CDs, torrented and bought from Bandcamp and go back to listening to radio. We have plenty of good radio stations here.
In Poland streaming costs next to nothing, at least on Tidal. I'm regularly using radios and generated playlists containing music I don't have in my collection, so it's definitely cheaper than buying every album
I don't know that much about US politics, but I remember the shock, when many people voted for PiS because “at least it's not PO and they surely won't implement all those ridiculous policies” and after being voted in, the politicians actually started implementing those ridiculous policies
It's a similar thing here, in Poland. Gas stations are basically expensive convenience stores and sometimes they are the only stores open, so it's not surprising that they sell alcohol. I'm just talking about the subconscious feeling I have. There was a plan recently to ban selling alcohol at gas stations, but I think it didn't go anywhere
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