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HalfSalesman

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  • modern psychiatry be like

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  • I already knew I was autistic I got diagnosed like 10 years ago as an adult, but I had never taken the test in question (Cat-Q) and I guess I kinda figured my autism was "light" or something. I think the test's questions were very effective at breaking through high masking so that's why I scored so heavily autistic and it kind of struck me so hard it made me cry. Masking is exhausting and at this point I can't really "stop" its so ingrained.

    For me I don't think there is anything intrinsically wrong with me but I think some aspects of it fueled some really stifling early life decisions that kept me from growing (before I learned I was autistic) and now I feel like I'm permanently "behind" socially/developmentally. Part of that also I think might have been how subtly conservative and judgemental a lot of culture I absorbed was as a kid that I ended up assuming everyone thought I was a dorky loser so I avoided people I thought were "cool" to a degree. I still feel like I can't relate to people my own age and that's been the case since I was like 8 and its still the case in my 30's. It makes me sad about what I've missed out on and makes me worry about my future.

    EDIT: I just retook it, I scored a 149, for context average male non-autistic scores are 96.89, for autistic men the average is 109.64.

  • "Politics"

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  • I’ll take my downvotes, but while I agree with the sentiment in this particular comic I have no fucking interest in seeing shitty pizzacake and her no-punchline comics or her army of sycophants here on Lemmy.

    "REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE"

    I will never understand why some of you insist on bringing the garbage we left Reddit to escape over here to Lemmy. Let pizzacake have her tiny window of microcelebrity on reddit and please spare the rest of us this bullshit.

    We kimosabe? I left Reddit because because its rapidly becoming a rightwing hellhole and it's inevitable enshitification due to being centralized and privately owned. Go create your own circlejerk club lemmy instance that hates pizzacake. Or just filter it.

    Or IDK, downvote and move on. Lambasting a comic book artist in the comments because you see them as undeserving of their success is aggressively elitist hipster douchebaggery.

    You should be like me and make everyone hate you for reasons that matter (Telling them their politics and philosophy is shit and stupid) and not arbitrary culture in-group-out-group elitism.

  • modern psychiatry be like

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  • I took one of those autism tests and I can't remember off the top of my head what the score was but it was very high which both surprises and doesn't surprise me. I mask extremely well according to most people I meet. Telling me "You seem normal" or even "You aren't autistic".

    I've only had two people tell me "It's obvious" ever, my mom and a single friend of mine.

    But holy hell all the other autism personality/psychological aspects are like cranked up to 100 and I have a love/hate relationship with that. Hyperfocus is a double edged sword for instance. I love that I can get super into something and get really fucking good at it but I don't love obsessing over the same thing for months to the point of it keeping me awake at night and hurting other aspects of my life because I can't change mental direction.

    It also isn't good for social anxiety, way too much rumination on single awkward conversations MAKE IT STOP.

  • Fascism is un-American

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  • Its arguable that its better to define them by the intent of the ideology rather than just their outcomes.

  • Life Goes On

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  • Are you sure that's not some kind of kink of yours?

  • "A woman is like a child": MAGA quickly turns its sights on stripping Republican women of power

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  • Note the "if they could"

  • Life Goes On

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  • I'm not sure what you mean. But I suspect that is cope.

  • 21 DOGE staffers resign as they refuse to 'dismantle critical public services'

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  • It doesn't, that's not my point though. "Idiot" is just a watered down form in the modern era, but its still a slur for someone with poor cognitive abilities. And much like "retard" it was used in a clinical/technical context originally.

    A person calling someone an idiot is using a culturally softer term to get away with conveying the same exact message. You feel contempt for someone for being dumb, a totally understandable emotion. Calling someone an idiot though doesn't convey the same bite, sure, but that is almost the problem. Why would you pull punches if you feel earnest contempt for them and their lack of intelligence? Its insincere.

    To provide another example of what I mean: If someone says "DEI people" they want to say the N-word without actually saying it and they are rightfully called out on that all the time.

  • "A woman is like a child": MAGA quickly turns its sights on stripping Republican women of power

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  • Incels aren't getting shit out of this, this benefits rightwing patriarchs who have abused wives at home.

    Incels are alone in a basement or some shit dreaming about being the rightwing patriarch but the rightwing patriarch doesn't likely feel anything but disgust for the incel. They'd purge the incel in a heartbeat if they could.

  • 21 DOGE staffers resign as they refuse to 'dismantle critical public services'

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  • Have you ever called someone an idiot?

  • Life Goes On

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  • I think honestly another way to put it is that pain and suffering are merely unpleasant signals intended to actually prevent you from dying. Death itself is a lovecraftian horror.

    I think I'll take the unpleasant signals.

  • An unvaccinated child has died in the Texas measles outbreak

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  • You legitimately have too much patience.

    In so far that anyone can deserve to suffer, these pieces of shit do.

  • An unknown illness kills over 50 people in part of Congo with hours between symptoms and death

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  • Shit, have I run into someone more misanthropic than I am right now? Neat.

  • An unknown illness kills over 50 people in part of Congo with hours between symptoms and death

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  • Fine, and the the innocent people on it. Jesus fucking Christ.

    My point was that Earth itself is just an object with things living on it.

    I might be aggressively fucking angry at like 90% of the voting eligible populace in America but there are a ton of other people that don't fit into that category that don't hold my ire.

  • An unknown illness kills over 50 people in part of Congo with hours between symptoms and death

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  • Its too bad I don't care about the rock we're floating around in space on and mostly care about me and my loved ones.

  • If people don't want others to be Doomers, why arent they doing something about all the doom in the world?

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  • Being a doomer makes you complacent though?

    If you think we're doomed, (like I kind of do) you lose motivation to do anything.

    I don't want to be a fucking doomer I want people to convince me to stop being one and no one seems able.

  • If people don't want others to be Doomers, why arent they doing something about all the doom in the world?

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  • The dread builds up anyway. Imagination takes over.

  • If people don't want others to be Doomers, why arent they doing something about all the doom in the world?

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  • What if I don't like my neighborhood because its full of backwards morons?

  • If people don't want others to be Doomers, why arent they doing something about all the doom in the world?

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  • I did, before November 5th. A ton of shit. Didn't fucking matter.