Last time (and first) i went to therapy i was low on money and because of our insurance i "only"(be warned, veru european amounts ahead) had to pay my "own risk" clause which sat at €385. But i REALLY needed some form of help during that time, i had some job interviews and i was physically unable to drag myself to them.

I got about halfway and just break down completely, so i was desperate and literally stuck in life from my point of view.

So i went to therapy with my last money and ended getting 3 sessions and a "we can't help you there is nothing wrong here's the bill tho".

I still don't know how i managed to get out of there, but i can still feel it pulling in the background...this constant dragging brake.

I don't think psychadelics can get me out of this, i tried weed once and man did i have a bad time. I've always had this: "i wouldn't mind not existing/suicide would be great right about now" kind of brain and the weed didn't help the worse part of that battle.