Fuck. That sounds really uncomfortable. Maybe have a bit of a chat with another party member about it? Not to try to get them on "your side" or anything but just to see if maybe there is something that you are missing.
Maybe you are too intense and they feel like recruitment isn't your gig? They should be able to just be honest with you but some people don't get that its better to hurt someones feelings than to hurt their trust especially in a party.
If it comes to confronting them try to lean into the "did I do something wrong" more than the "why are you guys lying to me and working behind my back" Try to not be accusatory and present it as you wanting to do self crit.












Venezuela has not been a win. They kidnapped a man but Chavismo is still strong. All that has happened is that the empire has further unmasked itself.