I'd take it a step further to a fear of curiosity and critical thinking, because once you engage with the world, you start seeing how complicated it is, and how complex the problems actually are, and how difficult the solutions are
Conservatives want simplicity, ease. They are nostalgic for the simplicity of childhood. They crave the bliss of ignorance.
Conservativism is basically weaponized Daddy issues and Grok is the new Father figure.
I feel this existentially, part of it is the sheer absurdity of existence, but part of it is the consequence of social media and doom scrolling.
I find it helpful for myself to take breaks, go for a long walk, or a run, stare into some water, lift something heavy a few times, or make some silly craft with my hands.
Regardless if the whole world is a fascist hellscape, or a communist utopia, we're all going to the same place in the end anyway - our dead bodies decomposing into dirt, so grass and mushrooms can grow out of us and live. And long after that our sun will burn out, and the remains of people grass and mushrooms will be cold minerals floating in the vast emptiness of space. And the universe will slowly entropy, until it forgets anything that ever happened here. Good or bad, all is temporary.
Going out won't magically make you feel all good and okay, but it could help stimulate some of the nice neutrotransmitters and help you feel a little less funk in a very funked up world. Keep being brave, comrade!
Valid, all valid, and I think everything would be so much better if they just listened to your concerns and cared - which should be a baseline expection in healthcare! - but it really does feel like covid plus the degrading neoliberal hell we live in means we just get what we get.
Continue to be brave, you did great to get this far already, it's going to be worth it to get through everything!
You really hit the nail on the head by including GNU. The philosophy of free software is embedded in the GNU components, Linux was basically just about making an OS kernel that's practical and useful, nothing more and nothing less.
Despite their differences in emphasis and methods (differences that are not always to be dismissed as insignificant) the Center and Right share a common commitment to the ongoing corporate class structure, and conservative institutional authority.
But have you considered referring to it as, "thy kingdom"?