Don't beat yourself up too much... just keep things in mind to make some small changes when possible. The kids are here already, there's no going back, but you can go forward, despite the hardships, in a way you can be proud of, right? (I know, I know, it's unsolicited advice, but it comes from a good place. ✌️)
PS: Actually, nah. I wouldn't say anything, I wouldn't want things to change (I did kinda date another Muslim qt before I met my now wife and I didn't agree with the religion conversion cause I was an atheist at the time, plus other details, so things fizzled out), I'm very pleased with my life despite the hardships.
Did you have such useless, immature, childish parents that your decision making and understanding of the world were on par with theirs when you were little? If so, fair enough, but know that's a rare, shameful case (for your parents, not you, ofc). Usually, you can rely on your parents' wisdom and love, especially when you're young and dumb.
Do you think people will, by default, just hate on other people at some point because they look drastically different from them/their group? That's a very Western take, I think, and a form of coping. You can find people bizarre-looking, shockingly so even (ever seen those videos of rural Chinese people meeting African people? They touch them just to check if it's not dirt, lol), but hatred because of it is certainly not natural. Well, it isn't in the rest of the world from what I've seen, I'd like to believe it isn't natural to the Western man either.
This is either American cope, pure misinformation, or both. Certainly not an opinion, and easily verifiable nonsense (do you want to do it by number of foreign interventions, coups, murders? You name it and, if it's in the last century, the answers won't be surprising at all). USA #1, right? And yes, no serious person "picks sides", this isn't football, this is geopolitics.
God doesn't have to "tempt you" with eternal life, that's just a bonus... your existence is enough of a gift (that you've enjoyed at least long enough to have children, else you would've done the intellectually honest thing if you're really speaking truthfully and ended it a long time ago), and enough proof of God as well. I think you had a really bad experience with a Western religion (yes, Trinitarian faiths are here, they're of Roman origin)/approaches to belief (understandably so, I've seen what American megachurches are like, and also the disconnect between belief and action) and think that has something to do with God. And the "problem of evil" seems to be doing your head in as well, as if a little difficulty (cause most evils are caused by people, the rest is illnesses, accidents and natural disasters) would take away from the gift that is life. Again, you can always just have nothing.
You've been given the opportunity to live, free of charge too cause what can you do to repay the Creator... and yet you're still so ungrateful. Why are you so upset at God? Is your life so terrible? You should be consistent at the very least and just rope, then, right? Let's hope you're young and immature and not old, cause then you'd be double ungrateful and silly.
Thank you, thank you, lol. Well, fair enough, I see what you mean. And I guess I'd like to believe otherwise but that might just be wishful thinking. 🥲
I understand "not taking risks" as a morally correct stance if you don't have enough information (you could mistake the victim for the offender, for instance), but I understood these scenarios as something you're present for, understand clearly and are capable of acting upon. I know this goes way beyond the original question, but, would you say that "the right thing to do" remains obvious, it's just that it's not so easy to be self-sacrificial? I mean, if you could singlehandedly stop a genocide from taking place, but you were gonna be somewhat traumatised for it, or someone in your family had to pay the price, I think stopping it remains the right thing to do, regardless of how willing we would be to do it, right?
But what about pancakes? 😔