This might not be the perfect analogy but this made me think of people I know who find healthy relationships “boring” and prefer unhealthy relationships with a lot of fighting and drama because it’s more exciting.
But at the end of the day the healthy relationship is healthier, it just “feels” uncomfortable until one can realign to it. As another comment says, you feasibly have more time to do the same tasks and, thus, avoid any stress or anxiety but that is possibly going to feel weird and uncomfortable because of the anxiety you were so used to attaching to it.
Maybe it’ll just take some time?
Oh I agree, it’s just that Germany gets me out of the US and overseas easier than anywhere else I’ve looked. So it’d be a stepping stone.