ostracized

I'm a member of a revolutionary party. known as a leading comrade in my region with positions in unions and in the party. However, I paid a visit to a comrade some months ago, I'm a little intense (ADHD) and an extroverted introvert. But the visit went well (so I thought), we had hot drinks and chatted for a few hours, they even had some weed (I don't smoke). I would say they are a good comrade but lacks theoretical understanding, class instinct is however outstanding. They will argue against union work, suggest boycotting and mostly wants to create localised small campaign around local issues. In principal I am for local issues, and we can have and have had great interventions in anti racist campaigns, but honestly, running campaigns as a small branch requires a lot and trends towards limited outcomes. This person seems to have blocked my messaging them privately, we are also planning on doing some recruitment in theyre town, it seems I am not invited. As I've been asked to do legwork instead of recruitment/party social (food and drinks after) Then there had been two promising recruits who I had met initially, a second meetup happened where two comrades went to meet them in my city (I have no problem with that) but when I asked about it, one of the comrades lied, and I know this because the other comrade told me about the fucking meeting.

I think I am currently being spoken about behind my back.

I can understand that I'm intense. I still find the secrecy to get under my skin.