I am lost, I need advice (TW: death, illness)

Hey all,

I don't know what to do, and need some advice.

Today I received the information that my father was moved to the palliative ward. He was in the hospital since a few days.

He had lung cancer, and lost half of his lung, now the tumor is back and restricting the remaining half.

He is dying. The doctors don't know when, and if there are days weeks or months left. Nothing to do but to make hin as comfortable and pain free as possible.

I want to visit him badly. But I am panicking already just thinking about what to say or what to do. I could call him but me, taking on the phone..., and the main issue remains, what should I say?

I am bad at social interaction, yeah. I live with that. But this situation is wo much worse I ever could imagine.

I love my dad. He is one of the most important persons in my life. Loosing him will of course be painful, but being in a situation where I can get the call every day, every minute ...

I am not able to work, think, sleep or be around other people very long.

Does anybody here have some advice?