Do y’all ever feel anxious about taking medication and just stop for prolonged periods of time?
I’ve stopped my meds for 6 months for reasons I’m struggling to discern… And I also have a tendency to skip doses and save my pills in a stash I never touch. I’m not even sure if most of them are useable because they’re so old… For some context, I’ve been using Adderall XR 20mg for 10 years now so I have a pretty good idea of how it affects me.
I finally took one of the newer pills today and I feel unbearably anxious about it, even before doing so. And it’s not like I’m anti-medication or anything, I’ve encouraged others to get tested and medicated because it substantially increases quality of life but there’s something about it that personally is causing distress.
Just looking for some insight with others that have felt the same.
I hated taking ADHD meds (Adderall etc) as a kid. They made me feel emotions that I knew weren’t my own. For the first hour after taking the meds I’d feel euphoric. Around midday I’d start getting a headache, and around 3 I’d get really quiet. I got all existential about it. I felt like a different person when on meds but not in a good way. I kept wondering which one was the real me.
After trying all the different stimulants available at the time I concluded I’d rather live with ADHD than suffer the side effects of the meds. Now I’m on another med that was supposed to treat my ADHD. It doesn’t, but It works great as an antidepressant so I keep taking it anyway.