I have a good feeling about this one.
But I have to say:
It may be that I’m “bipolar 1” or at least “bipolar depressive.”
Anything I should know about that I might be missing?
And, to anyone that has taken Lurasidone, let me know if it really works.
It should start working soon or in the mid-term, I’m sure.
Has it made you feel anything weird? It might be too soon but you never know!
Well, today is Day #7.
I think the side effects have improved, at least. I do feel angry this morning though.
ok, that’s a positive sign! angry how? irritable? overstimulated?
Well, on the 17th, I wanted to die at least, but that hasn’t happened since then.
i know that feeling, im sorry part of your brain is trying to off you mine does the same. it’s good that the suicidal ideations are gone, should be a huge relief.
Is that suicidal ideation? I think that’s generally classified as “thoughts of death.”
I definitely felt like I lost my will to live in that time.
tw for suicide/attempts mentions
yes, it’s suicidal ideation. there’s also a version that is passive where it’s generally heavy thoughts of dying without making plans or attempts for it.
not having the will to live can mean alot of things, like if you’re too fatigued to do anything, whereas ideation can also present itself in people that dont have fatigue. how do you feel in regards to this?
tmi: for me the thoughts are always there even while heavily medicated but when im fatigued i dont attempt bc i am too tired for anything. the dangerous part is when someone’s mood and energy starts to spike. on the outside ppl think they are better but si can still be present. thats when ppl have the energy to go through with the attempts.
Must have been the passive version then.