Buttbidet I could hear through the walls last night you singing for two hours straight classic communist revolutionary songs untill 3am, when the songs changed over I could hear a grown man sobbing then the sound of a gruff detective murmuring is everything ok?

Also if you ever get the temptation again stick to rick simpson oil, vaping the dry herb, (low dosed) edibles or such - smoking is so 1960s grandad

cannibis breeding has made strains that don’t make you paranoid

I mean, there absolute is something out there that can get you high and not necessarily set off the same sort of paranoia, but if you find it that intensely distressing then it might not be worth it for you to try and shop around. If you think you could tolerate a few bouts of paranoia though then it might be worth it, if you have access to a dispensary, to try to compare a wider variety

The thing is though everyone’s brains are a little different and what might be calming for someone might be too much of some cannabinoid or another for you. You’re throwing a shitload of cannabinoids at your brain that basically all start flipping a bunch of switches changing how you process information and there’s no 1-1 comparison you can really necessarily make between how people will react every time. Hell, it might even be distressing and paranoia inducing for you just to notice that change in how you process information, because it’s something you’re not used to. Like I basically can’t trip on hallucinogens anymore because when I start noticing it, it distresses me, and I basically spend the entire time locked in “trying to control my shit” mode.

Also I probably wouldn’t bother trying more if you don’t have access to a dispensary, like, even then I’m skeptical how good the quality control is at ensuring everything is at the exact same ratio of cannabinoids (at least without it being an extracted/processed product, you know), but if you’re just relying on dealers, unless they’re growing it themselves (and testing it and shit to make sure it’s consistent) then I really doubt they even know what they’re selling you.

P.s. are you smoking with a friend? If you try again, smoke ONE HIT (not “a couple puffs,”) and hang out with someone you know and trust. Treat that shit like a real hallucinogen, set and setting and all that.

Smoking weed really didn’t help my mental health, but so far not smoking weed hasn’t helped it either

over analysing even more over done

I have this so much too. I literally can’t stop my thoughts depending on what strain I’ve smoked. The only way I can explain it is that it feels like a heavy wheel spinning inside my head, crushing stones relentless.

Meanwhile, other strains do make my head more silent and get me much more aware of my body and surroundings.

Lately I’ve noticed that first one, when in a very low “dosage”, actually makes me much more creative if I sit down to write/read/draw, so I’ve found a positive side to those racing thoughts with moderation I think

I put on positive commie music for two hours and sang along, literally crying for much of it.

lol same, I used to do that when I arrived home from a night out drinking… I would just put on the Soviet anthem and vibe to it and cry a little

I don’t drink anymore, haven’t had a drop of alcohol in like two years now and it’s been the best decision I’ve ever made. Saved so much money, saved so much time wasted wanting to die due to a hangover. Cannabis has the same effect on me as it has on you, I become highly paranoid and have these almost OCD-like repetitive patterns where I keep checking if I’ve pissed myself or something like that.

Yeah, I feel a lot better about myself now that I’m not smoking weed everyday. It negatively impacted my mental health and would make me really depressed because I’d be unable to get out of my thoughts loops

Dude same, except for me it’s panic attacks.

I remember having the recurring nightmare that I wasn’t going to graduate college and my reflexes and instincts were like “Shut the fuck up. You’re dumb. Yeah, I heard you, but fuck off. I’m fine, fuck off. Fuck you.” So I woke up laughing instead of upset.

sounds like it wasn’t too bad honestly

Not pushing you to try anything but weed strains have come a long way in the past twenty years. There are strains now specifically to avoid and help with anxiety. I know several people who have your problem and once they picked up the right strain they had a vastly different experience.

Dang for me I feel like weed isn’t working until I start getting a little paranoid. Like I should be having a low grade anxiety attack in the background or I’ll feel like the weed wasn’t shit. I get off on nails-on-chalkboard real abrasive feelings but to each their own.

While it did help a little weed didn’t cure my depression but it start me down the path of doing other drugs that did (MDMA, LSD, DMT). From 23 to 30 I repeatedly blasted my brains with psychedelics and went on longer stimulant benders. I wish I could tell you there was some kind of model for this thing but its a crap shoot as far as I can tell, your results may vary

For me I started as very insecure and socially anxious. The drugs lowered my inhibitions and I learned to be more socially savvy, it unblocked everything that was making me bad at people stuff, being bad at navigating social situations and relationships was making my material reality poor, poor material reality making me depressed.

Once I got over my insecurities and got my social confidence up i was easily able to network/navigate to friendlier shores, this cascade of improving myself improves my situation improves myself improves my situation etc etc.

At least taking your coworkers advice to smoke weed shows you’re trying to do something about your depression. There’s lots of MFers who won’t try anything new to get out of their depression, if you’re trying new things and taking advice I think you’re gonna make it eventually

I used to smoke weed to forget and silence my thought, and yeah I have a mind like yours, I needed a lot more to smoke until I impeded thinking and them went directly to play videogames.

I dont smoke today for the same reason as you. I use mushrooms today every few months.

for me low dose psilocybin is good for depression, mid dose cannabis & a fun movie for stress relief, but a strain with low THC compared to the other cannabinoids.

I haven’t in a while (several months) under any circumstances, but for the last years of my weed-ing, really the only time I would do it was when I was doing certain yardwork or, more commonly, cleaning up around the house, basic chores, painting, or reorganizing a functional space. basically, any activity I have done a shitload of times to the point that it’s tedious normally. instead, I would rip it, put on some kinda chill jams, and just settle into the task and take my time like some kind of all-day craftsman so I wouldn’t rush. instead I would do it methodically and thoroughly, to my own benefit.

I absolutely couldn’t and cannot just get high and do nothing at the onset. chilling would be more of a tapering off activity when the work is done, everything is put away, and I can just sit there and survey the splendor of my efforts with maybe a note pad to jot down next steps or any grand epiphanies.

I used to think I was a weirdo for treating weed this way because my friends are all the type to just sink into the couch for an hour… but I’ve met my fair share of tradespeople who do the same. like maybe not an electrician (lol) but somebody who hangs drywall or paints or does hardscaping with like pavers. I’ve laid pavers while high, once all the planning, markers, and fundamentals are laid out and it becomes just slow and steady mule work. basically an activity where you know intuitively how to do it right, but the weed puts you in the “slow & smooth is fast” zone.

also being high would keep my posture and body mechanics on my mind, so I would be a lot smarter about taking care of myself. protecting the back, stretching, staying hydrated, setting up fans/shade, etc. all those little extra steps to make the overall vibe of the task more pleasant in the process and not rushing to completion like I’m being paid by the hour by a corner cutting asshole.

I still remember my IN-DEPTH arguments with a lemmy world chud explaining that his gnarly sickness/bowel distress was CHS.

He went to the mayo clinic (spent a gnarly amount of $) and dozens of other people (including himself) chimed in to be like “IT ABSOLUTELY CAN’T BE THE WEED. FUCK OFF” even when he admitted he didn’t ask the doctors or mention that he smoked a ton.

I still think of that from time to time, the libs couldn’t imagine it was the fault of the cure-all savior plant. I had CHS and it was like dying for 5 hours and having no idea why (and sometimes even smoking more because weed should cure nausea/vomiting… Right?)

All that to say, it’s a great drug, but drugs are bad if you use them habitually to cope instead of occasionally for fun. Microing shrooms is way better than weed for depression IMHO.

Edit: Removed abelist word that I can’t break the habit of using