Someone posted today about Alan Dershowitz and how he’s gonna sue a shop for not sellng him a pierogi. I’m reminded that his accuser was forced to recant and just commit suicide a few months ago.
In my own life, I’m hitting walls as well. No matter how nice and polite we are, no matter how absolutely terrible the other side is, no matter how well delivered our arguments are, no matter how garbage the arguments from the other side are, our feelings will be shot down with barely a moment’s consideration.
I feel so shut out of the judgement making centres of everything. Capital has such a hold on everything, from school, to the media, to our internet companies, to even the feelings and opinions of those whom we interact with daily. Most people know me, the masking vegan communist, as basically (in their minds) as a nazi. I’m empowered by their hatred. But the ideals of fairness and justice that I’m fighting have a long way to go. I get the TikTok personalities that just fuck you I’m gonna preach my message who most people hate because it triggers their cognitive dissonance.
I hate pointless competition with people with bad opinions. I hate that I’m a nice person. I hate that I’m too kind and that arguments stress me out for weeks. I hate that our planet is literally dying and maybe just maybe the old order is objectively wrong, yet we gotta be nice and smile and wait in line and maybe maybe maybe they’ll put in another bus in the city.
Sorry for the rant, but I feel terrible.
I appreciate it comrade. How has life been going for you?
NGL, I have been thinking about your these tough days.
Oh, you know, I’m fine. Why do you ask?
Lol. Thank you, I appreciate you thinking of me. It’s not all horrible, at least. I’ve been trying to get more involved with Florida’s still coviding community and I’ve stumbled on some people local to me, so I’m trying make friends. But it all feels very awkward and is going slowly. My multi-year, daily headaches stopped for a couple months, which was nice; And when they returned they were much less often and intense, so that’s good at least. And despite getting very close to making some mutual aid requests (like ALL my side hustle stuff dried up for the winter🙃) I think my finances are starting on an upward trajectory again, I’ll know more by this “winter” I think.🤞
That’s about all the good news, I guess. For reasons very similar to yours, I’m Mr. Rage McTearsFace up there most of the time and am just trying to stay focused and figure out how best to contribute positively towards the struggle… Of which Florida seems like it’s gonna need to be a major epicenter. I’ve found some decent mask-required aid orgs but they’re not super local to me, so I’m trying to time my future travels to coincide with some of their events when I can.
Idk, yeah, wish I could be like it’s all gonna be sunshine and rainbows but shit is getting nasty out there and the “left” is just so damn scattered and near non-existent at the moment. If I could offer any advice it would probably be that comic I post sometime:
The way I’m keeping sane is basically look around you at the gears that need stopping and come up with a skill that you can build to contribute in a meaningful manner for when you come across others doing the same. And just fucking lock in, I guess. F the libs, acknowledge the Class War and find some time where you can live without having to swim in the cognitive dissonance that’s tearing us all apart. Even if it does involve some crying from time to time. Lol.
I gotta say, finding local CC people is very hard. I literally just know one other person outside my household. Not surprisingly, they’re semi disabled, so they get it. I’ve talked to a few other local CC people and they all seem like massive libs. I’m not saying that CC people are mostly libs, but within those who have time to post a lot about it there seem to be a preponderance of libs. I’m convinced that they have the material resources to be quixotic and outspoken on just one subject. Sorry for that tangent. But yes, finding CC friends is hard, I still feel very alone. Especially with the masking drama here, I wish I had more people to vent to. It must be very hard for you, comrade.
So I’ve had literally 3 different, not at all connected, white friends move to Florida and become massive chuds. Three separate times. There must be something going on down there.
The way I’m keeping sane is basically look around you at the gears that need stopping and come up with a skill that you can build to contribute in a meaningful manner for when you come across others doing the same. And just fucking lock in, I guess. F the libs, acknowledge the Class War and find some time where you can live without having to swim in the cognitive dissonance that’s tearing us all apart.
I need to have this perspective more.
Congrats on financial stuff going well. You deserve to be stable and get your needs met.
gotta say, finding local CC people is very hard. I literally just know one other person outside my household. Not surprisingly, they’re semi disabled, so they get it. I’ve talked to a few other local CC people and they all seem like massive libs. I’m not saying that CC people are mostly libs, but within those who have time to post a lot about it there seem to be a preponderance of libs. I’m convinced that they have the material resources to be quixotic and outspoken on just one subject. Sorry for that tangent. But yes, finding CC friends is hard, I still feel very alone. Especially with the masking drama here, I wish I had more people to vent to. It must be very hard for you, comrade.
Oh no, I get it.i’ve noticed that over in r/zerocovid there’s a considerable amount of people that are just looking for their opportunity to go back to normal. And then, being in Florida, there’s way more conversations in online groups from white people about trying to do Disney safely than I’m comfortable with. Marginalized CC folks more often than not seem to be the ones seeing the writing on wall.
Yeah, Florida’s… not great. It’s basically been a libertarian thinktank Petri dish for decades and it’s just rotting away the minds of people living here.
I need to have this perspective more.
I’m not saying that it’s easy or I’m good at maintaining it, mind you.
Thank you. 🤞 Hopefully one day we all will!
Just a thought, but have you tried stickering your school? Qrcodes in the bathroom stalls to leftist tiktokers, Hasan, yellow Parenti, and things like that. Make it seem like there’s a contingent of leftist kids? I can’t remember what age group you work with, if that would fly but it might be an interesting experiment. I’m a very big proponent of commie mkultra-ing.
