i have a lot going on besides that. just broke up with a guy, realized i wasn’t even into guys (but it stung more that he didn’t pay attention to me/care regardless), then having some rocky relationships with my gf (open relationship) and long-time friend, the latter i’m cutting contact with. (meaning i will only talk to her if i have to or if she talks to me first)
with all of this, my anxiety’s acting up and i’m a bit (still although it got better) on edge.
Distractions. You need a lot of them. Good company. Good hobbies. Something.
It is never a great idea to let your mind wander off for too long, because it’ll go places you wouldn’t want it to and you’ll sometimes just be held down by it.