Like what biological function thinks it’s helpful to want to die? It’s a visceral reaction so it has to be a kind of biological intuition.
I’ve got it so bad off of something that is seemingly not worth this reaction. But I can’t shake it anyway. But if this sense is biological, then it can cascade beyond reason like an allergic reaction.
I went to a board game night with some folks who are mostly acquaintances. I show up and a group is already starting to figure out a game and it looked like the easiest group to join. This game is bad. I was chill. My teammate was chill. The people we were playing with were chill. But this game was so bad I can’t shake the fact that despite everyone having made the best of it, this was not a good social interaction. And I just feel bad. More bad than I should feel. It’s just painful.
The game was Jurassic Park Danger! And maybe I just need to tell someone. I’m not going to do anything. I don’t need a wellness check. But I can’t shake this feeling like death would be ok and maybe for the best.
What is it about bad social interactions that make us feel like death is preferable?
Once I was out with some friends for lunch and there was one girl I’d never met before who was a friend of one of my other friends.
I remember we were all just chatting casually as you do and she asked me a question. I didn’t hear what she said so I was like “Sorry?”. She asked me again. I didn’t hear it the second time so I was like “Say again?”. She repeated herself a third time. I still didn’t hear what she said, so I was like “Sorry, I still didn’t get that”.
She repeated herself a FOURTH time and you guessed it, I still didn’t catch what she was asking me. So this time I just smiled and nodded and hoped that whatever she had asked me could be answered with just a “Yes” or “No”. She just sat back and said “okay…” and gave up. I could tell she was thinking wtf is wrong with this guy.
Makes me wince to think about even now. I still have absolutely no idea what she was saying that day, and why at that particular moment I couldn’t seem to hear her properly.
This was very relatable. Thanks for the cringe.
Was it a loud environment or was she just a soft talker? I’m pretty sure there is a Seinfeld episode on this. In fact, it’s the pirate shirt episode.
Just be glad you didn’t say yes.
It was a busy food court in a mall, although not overly loud. She also wasn’t what I’d call a soft talker. Not sure what happened, because I’d already been with her for about 20 minutes prior.
Very embarrassing moment!