Anyone ever taken lamotrigine for reasons NOT related to bipolar disorder or epilepsy? Did it ever make you more emotionally unstable???

Hi all. Been taking lamotrigine off label from my psych provider. Intended to help with emotional instability.

I have been slowly titrating up. Had some ups and downs but now I feel like I'm nearly at the worst I've ever been.

I have been on 200 for the past 3 weeks. My mood has not stabilized in that time and I am getting much worse.

A few days after the increase to 200 my coworker noticed an immediate and dramatic negative shift in mood and appearance. Prior to that, I was on 150 for 5 weeks. Initially I was doing pretty good but I had a steady decline for the entirety of the 5th week before I was upped to 200.

My bros please help. This is destroying my career and relationships. It has immediate and significant impacts on my life.

I sent my provider an urgent message in her portal but yeah I need to figure out this shit asap.

Not sure if I am having a paradoxical reaction to every psych med I am trying or what??? Also yes I am in therapy but in the process of changing to one who is a lot more strucutred in her approach and less of a talk therapist.