The only two things LLMs can do are (1) convincing tech illiterate CEOs that they can replace every white collar worker on Earth and (2) doing BOMBARDIRO CROCODILO
I feel somewhat nostalgic about my childhood too. I clearly remember that I didn't feel happy about my life when I was a kid though. Was as depressed as today. The only difference is that you tend to have much more hope when you're younger. Who has hope in this capitalism when it's rotting like a zombie?
I'm so sorry that you are going through your disability. In a way your words resonate with me for some different reasons. You kinda have no good plans for the future although it seems like there's a whole life ahead of you. And nobody can really help you in any way, so you're mostly on your own with your life.
In such a situation, you hope to find a way to have such a life so that after death people put you on ProleWiki 2075 saying "yeah that guy really made at least a modest positive contribution to this civilization". If that happens, great.
The basic point is that even if our state (USSR in 1937 or China in 2025) is technologically on par with the enemy, we must still stay as vigilant as in 1918. The enemy is backed from abroad, and it's still true for China. It's easier to destroy a factory than build it. Even if the enemy is not technologically superior anymore, their agents can wreck havoc without being numerous.
All the good countries like the AES states, Burkina Faso, Mali and Niger must remember that. Is this work useful for us in capitalist countries? Yes
Politicians pretending like student debt doesn't exist
When your society gives you medical education, you're naturally expected to pay back by serving your country. You don't like the socialist system? Your country is surrounded by an ocean of capitalist states. You can go live there, for a capitalist price and capitalist conditions
I see the return. I see the climate doom coming even closer