Last time I started with Claritin and it didn’t do much of anything, so this time I went straight for benadryl. As far as I can tell it’s not really doing much either. The only thing that has felt helpful is the topical benadryl cream that I put on it last time.
The stuff I’ve got has benzyl alcohol, but no benzyl benzoate per the docs. I haven’t been exercising before or after. I did go for a run yesterday, so maybe that helped set it off, but I was about a day and a half post injection at that point.
I’ve got a pretty solid stash at the moment, so I might not wait for it to run out before trying to find something with castor oil… I don’t want to be itchy for a couple years haha.
I popped some benadryl, and I’m gonna try taking them at injection time next week provided I can remember to do that. I’m a little concerned that I’ll have to find an alternate source; this happened on my last injection, which was 2 weeks ago, and it only barely had time to get better over those two weeks, despite taking Benadryl multiple times.
Yo I was taking a sudden and unplanned grass-touching break in the latter days of the last mega, so I missed being able to tell you previously that I’m glad you’re here, so I’m doing that now ❤️
Hey, I just wanted to say thanks to everyone who commented on my recent losing-of-shit re: tiddy. I kinda just fucked off and disappeared for a handful of days, and I’m still kinda vibing my way through things, but I’m most likely gonna jump back on.
I think I’ve just got some lingering appearance brain worms where, like, every trans girl is cool and valid and pretty except me, who is clearly a stinky jackass and a poser and basically an ogre or at least some kind of minor sewer demon.
I started on Halloween so it’s been about a month. I was happy with things until the other day when my nipples started to get sore, and even then I was really excited for a couple hours before it flipped.
I think maybe I’m less stoked about breasts than I am about less belly and more hips/butt. I’ve already got a sizable ass from squatting but it’s still more dude shaped than I’d prefer.
Right now my plan is to take a pause and keep thinking about it and figure out what’s got me all twisted.
Wait there’s fem without boobs HRT? That’s interesting… I’ve definitely liked how I feel other than this latest development. I’ve get a lot more relaxed since starting hormones.
That’s an interesting question.
If I can go back to being like 20 and start femmimg up before turning into a damn Sasquatch and putting on a bunch of muscle and some fat in this scenario then I’d probably look like a mildly gothy tomboy lesbian with short hair. I’d also be open to a femme twink with the same look otherwise.
If I can’t do that and have to work with what I’ve got then I’d have to think about it more. Maybe it’s just the idea of having to deal with all of the testosterone damage that’s got me all fucked up?
Or like maybe my anxiety is just worse than I thought? Or maybe I’m just afraid of changes? No matter what it is, I definitely need to get to the bottom of it.
I’m honestly not sure yet, that’s something that I need to consider more. I went from feeling excited to feeling panicked in the space of a day, and then just kept feeling anxious about it. Idk.
Like, if I could flip the “born with ovaries” switch I definitely would, but... idk maybe I’m NB or fluid or something and never noticed it because being a man feels like a coffin? I am very confused about this.
I’ll keep that in mind come Friday, thank you :)