I miss having family. The past couple years I've been debating just showing up to my fathers side's gatherings because they're the least religious and I haven't seen them since I transitioned but the one uncle I actually vibed with died of COVID a few years ago and they're ever so vaguely right leaning and the current political atmosphere... Just didn't feel worth it.
It seems like every other transfems I know in person still has some kind of family and it's devastating every time I learn that. I'm happy for them and I'm glad they have family that still cares about them. It just really hammers home how terrible my family is and reinforces how alone I feel in this experience.
I've been listening to a lot of femtanyl and STOMACHBOOK on repeat and I'm not sure if it's helping with my mental health or making it worse lol.
Thanks for witnessing my suffering; here's a cute pic of my baby Bert.
I have the sevre side stuff all set up as far as I know but I've not been able to get the Roku app to connect. I should note the tv is literally on the other side of the wall from my computer, they're on the same network.