Well one irritation is when I first started this my body craved the meat itself and I was like deeply hard focused in on wanting to eat more meat.
Secondly. I get this very protective overwhelming anger when for example my wife talks about her abusive mom. That doesn’t feel like anything from mania as I’ve experienced that before but almost an animalistic sadistic anger. That is cold and controlled but the moment you are released it’s beyond anything you’d expect in a human.
Mania when I felt it was this overwhelming heat, unbearable, like every single thing sets you off. Hard to control. This is nothing like that.
It’s not that lost touch with reality. It’s that I’m just different. I’ve always been very more animalistic. Like I actually make Cassowary sounds and more types of sound. Constantly.
I even have an Estrus literally. So while this post may seem crazy for others. The ancestral primal instincts I’m gaining. Truly I don’t think is that crazy. I just didn’t know I was this odd.