but they don't affect the underlying neurodivergence in any way (ie. I'm still annoyed at change, still struggle to Go Out And Do Things in life)
Have you talked to doctor about those? You may have to seek out psychologist and/or therapist to get answers you’re looking for.
I wish I could go back and get diagnosed sooner. I barely remember my 20’s due to major depressive episodes. But I’m happy I’m figuring it out now instead of 10 or 20 yrs from now!
If potentially having mental illness is bothering you, see a doctor about it.
I got diagnosed in my 30s and holy damn meds changed everything. I took adhd meds for first time and 45 mins later remember thinking ‘is this how normies are all the time? You can think something and just do it?? No prep, no build up?!’
Holy shit dude right on the money! I never realized how obsessed with time and deadlines I was but your analysis makes perfect sense. There’s so many times I’ll get anxious trying to relax in the evening because I don’t want to enter that timeless state and be up super later. So I end up sitting there paralyzed trying to pick something fun to do but not too fun.
I’m gonna try not engaging with the anxiety and see how it goes. Instead of avoiding the anxiety feeling by distraction or whatever, take a walk and decompress.
Also the whole stimming thing. Never heard that term used. I chew my fingers and blast music all the time to soothe the anxiety. This is a whole new perspective on my music listening habits.
Absolutely eye opening post! Thanks for putting it so eloquently!
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