Struggling with moodswings, anhedonia and lack of motivation

I have as much optimism as i can muster but i'm struggling. For me the fact that i am even writing my thoughts here is a bit of an admission of weakness. I am deeply frustrated.

I have autism. I'm fucking hating my life, this is more on a personal level. I still have hope for the working class and do my best. I find it really hard to talk to people, i dunno how to connect with regular folks around work. Barely can utter yes and no at times without freezing; how am i supposed to agitate? I picked the ideology that requires the most SOCIAL skills. The theory is correct, it is good, proven and works. It's just me. I don't "work". Boyfriend stares at me with blank stare puppy eyes when i try to talk socialism because he has ADHD. I love him a lot, and he does so too back. Used bananas to explain basic socialism to him, which it has been the only info his birdy brain has retained. Did i say i love him?

Mom; live with her, stuck with her. Can't escape because no stable jobs. Took me 5 years to get a very simple degree, as health issues, depression and COVID happened. Transitory services enterprises (E.S.T) are the bane of my existence as companies no longer hire directly but through an intermediary. They use you until they no longer need you and most of the time always pay the minimum and you have to be fucking thankful for it according to mom. (Fuck neoliberalism)

Housing in Chile for people my age is fucked. Prices are getting fucked. Jobs are fucked. My mental state is fucked and Penco is REALLY FUCKED (have you seen the fires?)