Often I end up closing the list and immediately turning to self-soothing. And because there’s no way to know in advance if a task on the list will give me anxiety, this often results in my list being not just unusable but unreadable, preventing me from doing or even remembering the non-anxiety tasks on the same list.
Congratulations on making that observation. I know I frequently have problems because I’m just oblivious to my own mental state. I’m to busy with what I am doing that I don’t pay attention to what I am doing. So good job noticing. The best suggestion I have I to make time to observe the emotion. Next time it happens to make a few minutes of time to just experience and think about that feeling.
Thanks. That’s what I’ve been doing today, post-realization, is sitting with the knowledge and how it makes me feel.