I recently asked this community how you experience dysporia, however it seemed like no one had the same “symptoms” that i am currently experiencing and Im not really sure what it is.

Currently it happens somewhat regularly that I feel like someone ripped a gigantic hole into my chest. It is this type of hole that cant be filled. It devinetively is caused by my quite big desire to be a woman. So becoming what i dream of is the only way of combating this. “The hole” (I named it the void) fluctuates quite a lot in intensity. sometimes its relatively small and on other days it feels like an flesh made nightmare that you cant escape. There are the feelings of needles punctuating my chest or the feeling of an iron ring, thats wrapped around my chest that i have to fight against with every breath. Whenever the void appears, it is guarded by this huge desire to transform into a woman.

Currently I dont really experience the typical symptoms of dysphoria (hating yourself/your body…). I only sometimes have it, that when i look into a mirror, that I cant really connect to the face staring back at me. This lack of obvious signs of dysphoria is the reason, why i am starting to think, that what I experiience is my bodys way of manifesting dysphoria.

Edit to save you the effort of typing:
I have devinetively come to the conclusion that I Am trans. I have accepted it and i am actively working towarda my transition, slow but steadily. You also dont have to recommend the Gender Dysphoria Bible, since I have already read it. I have also watched the video series about MTF folks by the transition channel. I am just absolutely confused what this is, that I Am experiencing. I will try to find a therapist.

  • Hildegarde@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
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    7 days ago

    Gender dysphoria is not diagnosed by the symptoms. The determining factors are the desire for change, and the presence of some sort of distress or discomfort. The specifics of the discomfort that you experience are not part of it. If you want to change your gender, and have some amount of discomfort as a result, you have gender dysphoria. From reading your post, it sure sounds like it.

    If you’re interested, I have included the diagnostic criteria for gender dysphoria and transsexualism from the American Psychiatric Association’s DSM-5, and the World Health Organization’s ICD-10 respectively. If you go to a doctor they will almost assuredly be using one of these documents to determine if you can be diagnosed for it. They both require some amount distress or discomfort but give no details on what that distress or discomfort feels like or how it manifests.

    DSM-5's Diagnostic criteria

    Gender Dysphoria in Adolescents and Adults 302.85 (F64.1)

    A. A marked incongruence between one’s experienced/expressed gender and assigned gender, of at least 6 months’ duration, as manifested by at least two of the following:

    1. A marked incongruence between one’s experienced/expressed gender and primary and/or secondary sex characteristics (or in young adolescents, the anticipated secondary sex characteristics).

    2. A strong desire to be rid of one’s primary and/or secondary sex characteristics because of a marked incongruence with one’s experienced/expressed gender (or in young adolescents, a desire to prevent the development of the anticipated secondary sex characteristics).

    3. A strong desire for the primary and/or secondary sex characteristics of the other gender.

    4. A strong desire to be of the other gender (or some alternative gender different from one’s assigned gender).

    5. A strong desire to be treated as the other gender (or some alternative gender different from one’s assigned gender).

    6. A strong conviction that one has the typical feelings and reactions of the other gender (or some alternative gender different from one’s assigned gender)

    B. The condition is associated with clinically significant distress or impairment in social, occupational, or other important areas of functioning.

    ICD-10's Diagnostic Criteria for Transsexualism

    F64.0

    Transsexualism

    A desire to live and be accepted as a member of the opposite sex, usually accompanied by a sense of discomfort with, or inappropriateness of, one’s anatomic sex and a wish to have hormonal treatment and surgery to make one’s body as congruent as possible with the preferred sex.

    Diagnostic guidelines

    For this diagnosis to be made, the transsexual identity should have been present persistently for at least 2 years, and must not be a symptom of another mental disorder, such as schizophrenia, or associated with any intersex, genetic, or sex chromosome abnormality.