As an Bisexual, I feel too scared to date as I feel like people would still default me as 'Gay'.

I'm not the most straight-looking person and I ever since high school have people calling me or just assume I was gay. It has always brothers me being labelled as "gay", even when I used to identify as one, as it never felt like it exactly resemble to me compare to the label, Queer or Bisexual. It wouldn't annoy me as much if people stop assuming sexuality, especially them guessing if someone is straight or gay but doesn't even think about other sexuality.

It doesn't help that I read online about straight women having major icks with Bisexual men, whether it's thinking they're cheaters (as if straight people don't also cheat as well) or just in denial about their sexuality. The only time I felt genuine happiness for being Bi was going to a swinger event one time and it was me and group of guys getting dominated by a woman. I felt like I lived in best of both world at that night where I can explore my Bisexual side where otherwise, I mainly hookup with men. Sure, I'm more attached to men but I also attached to women as well and wish I express that side more. One of the thing I feel anxious about the most is what if she [whoever the person I will date in the future] would be disgusted of both my sexuality as well as me for not being vanilla and also thinks that I'm a slut.

Honestly, I wish I stop overthinking which it is easier said than done. With my history of shitty friends that I used to hangout with, it did make me have such a low self-esteem till the point where I'm scared to do anything as I feel like I'm going to get mocked by people, even the ones who claimed to liked me.